Epic Fail

I got my result today i failed in two subjects accounts and eco i failed by half a mark in eco and got just 9 marks in account. I don't know why i failed. I tried hard this time. Well at least before the exams i studied. I used to be up all night studying. I know i did not deserve anything in accounts but i do think i should have had got around 20.

For the rest of the subjects. I think i deserved more. I put in a lot of effort this time. But no matter what i do it always sums up to a failure. I am really disappointed in myself right now, and so is my dad. My mom does not know my accounts marks as yet. But when she does she is gonna kill me.

I see it clearly now wasting all that time roaming here and there enjoying, nothing nothing staring at books pretending to study, fooling parents all adds up to nothing only sums up to this failure i have here before me.

I also know i studied hard during the exams but studying just before the exams is not enough i have always been thinking nevermind ill start studying from tomorrow but now ill have to start with today make corrections become better at all those subjects. After all i want to go for a college in Delhi or Mumbai and now with 3 red lines in my report card ill really have to work hard.

I don't know what would become of me i know i will improve and i want to i want to be more consistent but what i fear the most right now is my parents and their reaction their combined reaction.

Given a choice they might even kill me but since that i am their kid they wont but would make my life a living hell. I hate vivek too. They have done retarded checking seriously they have tried their level best to fail student. Plus who fails a kid by half a mark. If i were passing in eco it would not have had been that big a scene and now since i am failing in two subjects its bad for my report card, moreover all the more reason for my parents to kill me.

I hope they do not react as badly as i think they will.